Leakey Challenge

I'm challenging myself to reach 50 pounds lost by Friday at Leakey. This will be a 16 pounds in 7 weeks challenge. I got my new heart rate monitor today,(I wore the old one out/ and it's a better version of the one I used to use-Yippee!!!) I've got my calorie book ready, and I've got perfectly (I measured) portion meals ready (at least for the next week).

first successful week eating

I was up 10 pounds...now I'm only up 5. So, I've gotten more on tract! I've started exercising by doing outdoor activities. I've started with hiking. I want to do some kayaking, but due to my shoulder I've decided to wait. After this weekend I'll be able to start doing my shoulder exercises to try and rehab it, then I can start doing arm things again (swimming, rock climbing, and kayaking).

I think that going back to school has helped me get back on tract. I eat my shakes as breakfast so that really starts me out on the right foot. I'm always more focused when I'm busy due to the amount of planning I have to do to make sure everything gets done. To help me continue with this positive forward progress I've planned out a healthy one dish meal (easy to transport and store) for this week. I made up the recipe, or at least I will when I start cooking, so I hope it turns out alright (I'm doing a sweet chili chicken on rice with cabbage, carrots, snap peas and mushrooms and raw broccoli as side/snack). I do enjoy cooking everything from scratch, something I haven't done in a very long time, so I'm looking forward to cooking and creating something.

What is my goal?

My friend Amy reminded me of what my ultimate goal is today. That I want to be comfortable enough with myself that I am able to date and eventually get married. I've been loosing weight due to my lack of self esteem in the key ingredient that defines romantic relationship vs. friendship, sex. About 90% of my overeating is due to loneliness and it happens at night on the couch (when I'm snuggled up with Lorne, who I love but isn't the same as a person) when I'm all alone and I know that everyone is at home with their own family. I truly believe that I would eat less if I was more social. So Amy asked me to set a different goal to try and combat my weight in a different way. She says I should have at least one date before the end of this year. Just the idea of this is terrifying. So, I'm going to start with a smaller goal. Kim and Danielle go to swing dance on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I'm going to start going. Meet new people. Have some fun. Interact with people I don't know (I'll have to as neither Kim nor Danielle are gentlemen).

Day 2 of being more on tract

I've had at least 3 shakes/day for the last 2 days. I worked out Thursday and today. I have plans to workout tomorrow before we float the river. My extra food is not spot on, but it's way closer that it has been.

Step by step.

Day 12 Million of not being on tract

I have done nothing since Padre except gain weight and stuff my face like the not so little piggy I am. Hence why I haven't posted. It's just embarrassing. I'm afraid people will think I'm not trying. I am such a self saboteur. I feel like that is the rut I am in. (thank you brian for helping me with this-the getting out of the rut)

They say that it takes 3-4 days of really hard work to get back on tract. So,......um....I guess I will create a goal for myself. My goal for today: Only shakes today from this time on and I can have one salad when I get home from work.

Tomorrow. Shakes only unless I go work out. If I work out I can add a salad with dressing and 4 oz of lean protein. Let's see how this goes before more goals are made.