Self Sabotage

I'm in self sabotage mode. Something I've done to myself a lot. Unfortunately, shoveling food into my face isn't as satisfying as it used to be. It didn't make me feel any better, in fact it's made me feel worse. It didn't solve any problems (shocking I know). I feel worse about my actions. My body is unhappy with me for eating badly, the whole system is off. I'll definitely gain weight this week...I overate and I didn't work out enough. This situation reminds me of wanting a cigarette while I'm sipping my beer and watching my friends smoke, and then I take a puff of someone's and it tastes bad, makes my head hurt and doesn't give me any satisfaction.

Some positives: It doesn't give me the satisfaction it once used to(No more positive reinforcement! No rewards for bad behavior!). I know eventually, with some more work, my actions will fall into line with my new way of life and the cravings for the old way of life will fall away and become someone I once was. The other positive: I'm stopping a self sabotaging cycle before it gets away from me. Usually I just let everything fall apart through apathy and laziness. I know I'll probably do this another couple of times before I truly learn this lesson, but I feel that although my weight will move backwards, maybe my mental abilities will be moving forward?